Her Fortitude : Emergence

When Kilafairy and I Meet in Perempuan Magazine this August

2011-08-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

This post is meant to promote something that I am recently part of

*oh yes, I know this may sound very very innocent and non-self promoting haha*

Actually, this holiday has been quite a long one for me and I bet also for any other local uni degree undergrads. I've been trying to make myself occupied at all time yet not attached to any commitment whatsoever. So, what I did was making myself busy with TheCocoCloset, as you all can see in the previous post, and also do some chores at home. One thing that I've done differently this break is ummm... this! haha I've been invited to model for a workout section in Perempuan magazine. This may not be the first time my face has appeared in a magazine *not that I've been doing this much, not at all actually, only once in Dara.Com* but this one if a bit different because... WORKOUT!

Does the word actually rhymes with my name or even my personality? haha Have to admit since school ended I've been a bit of a bimbo pretending not to do any sport at all, even catching a ball is like 'fuyooo' for my friends to see. No kidding, they actually think that I am that kind of girl who keeps her hand clean and all. Well maybe I've turned into that somehow, which is not something that I am proud of because it is just not cool to live an unhealthy lifestyle. And I bet some may not believe that I've represented school in track team, netball and tennis. I was once the captain of the netball team at school and was 'anak emas' for Cikgu Rozman for the track team along with Fathana Nadhirah and Azreen in Taman Tun school before. *brag brag brag*

Oh, anyway, this is really not my point. The point is... haha my friend Diana Ibrahim and Aqilah Hairan who were doing their internship there and working part time this holiday, had insisted that I help them out in completing some job they were assigned to. Oh yes, their job include interviewing celebrities, cool people, going to fashion show and make review about it, write articles for the magazine, do fashion shoot with local designers and models. and some other stuff. In short, their job is super awesome!

I did followed them once, when they had to do a cover on Fatin Liyana Asri, the famous uprising blogger of our age. Yes, she is 22 years old, medical student, a model, a blogger, the sister of Maria Elena's boyfriend, a perfectly normal and sweet lady whom we often misjudge just because they are famous. I can assure you that she is not a snob, no diva, humble and very very very pretty in person. So, lesson learned. Never judge a book by its cover, well in this case, never judge a blogger by her ... ummm whatever your judging her from, look, writing, or whatever. So anyway, here are some pictures we took on the interview.

Taken from Fatin Liyana's blog, so here we are from left : Diana Ibrahim *the writer*, Aqilah Hairan *the photographer*, the famous Fatin Liyana, and the last two are the 'penyibuk' me and lastly Rafeeza

We thought that if Fatin Liyana didn't turn up, we might just do a story on Rafeeza. She's a wonder girl, and I am not joking. If I were to explain, it might take pages of blog post. In short, she's a superb debater, receiver of an award in UiTM for being Mahasiswa Cemerlang *can't recall the exact name of the award*, worked for the Health Ministry before, currently doing her part time job in a law firm, an active activist who fights for whatever damn right we have ie women's right, voting rights etc, a super duper awesome friend to Diana and I since we were back in Damansara Jaya school

* yeap, where we spent our 'hingusan' days together being nerds and cool at the same time haha*

Wait, did I described her in short? Umm failed attempt I guess, she's too awesome.

So anyway...

Here is the article written by Diana Ibrahim on Fatin Liyana in the Ramadhan issue of Perempuan magazine in July

This month a new hottie is on the cover page. Kilafairy, the new actress who starred in Karak movie by KRU production. Got to admit, yes that was the first time ever I've ever came across this lady and I thought she was sexy in the movie. And her lips, oh my oh my. Just look at the picture, what more can I say. Though there were speculation on the lips and all, I dare not say it here. Not my place to speak and of course, me not wanting to be 'mama juwie' or whatever on this blog. It shall be clean from any gossip, umm I hope. But she is so hot! Doesn't she look lovely in this picture? I adore her! I know my friend, Chubby does too! Kan Chubby kan? hehe

Here is the cover for August issue that I'm in, it has Kilafairy on it! *thrilled!*

Mia Edruce met her in person during ButtonMyButton's fashion show when her famous sister, Ain Edruce modeled for the Raya in the City Collection. She said Kilafairy was very nice. Isn't that true, Mia?

Ah, and this is Izd Jaafar, the writer for Perempuan magazine and also Diana and Aqi's very very good friend. He got really lucky even on the first day he started working. He gets to meet a hell lots of celebrities and famous people okay! On his first day, he met Khadijah Ibrahim -.- *tell me about it!*

Dude, pinjam your profile picture okay! I tahu u suka I blog pasal you haha *okay that's a joke*

So anyway, here comes the part where the not-famous-at-all babe came into the picture haha

It was a two-page spread workout tips on how to get a flat tummy!

Bahahahahahaha What a joke right! I told them that this was a bad idea because the model doesn't have a flat tummy! This is all lie lie lie! Haha I had to inhale for every snap *okay, alar takde lah teruk sangat! saje exaggerate je *

But you know, I'm telling you this tips do work if you are consistent and determine. Seriously, no jokes. I actually go home with aching muscle after this shoot okay! Not to forget I had 'nasi kandaq' with the crew after that haha so much of flat tummy or what not huh

One of my favorite shot. It is the superman shot! Weeeee!

Hey, this is one freaking hard move to be shot okay, How long do you think you can stay that way to get the perfect shot for the article? Sakit tau! So please do appreciate my effort to let you people have a super flat tummy this Raya, go and get a copy of Perempuan magazine for August issue! It's Raya Special.

And there's Kilafairy and I in it! haha *okay, not funny. umm go and buy it*

And do wait up for September issue too. Guess who is in it again?!

See you people! Toodlessss!

*working out for next month!*

Behind the Scene of Beauties of the Garden

2011-07-22T18:38:00.000+08:00

Final year of BLS has been quite a hectic one for me. Well, a lot had happened that made me quite inactive in TheCocoCloset. But now, we're back with brand new image for the blog. Im hoping that it will give a fresh new start to TheCocoCloset. I was thinking of a garden theme for the new collection. So I asked my best girl friends to do me this big favour to come out with the project. Thank God I have such great girl friends around me to help me out and the great thing is they were actually excited about it too

Managed to get them to agree to this, so here are the list of my models

Fyqa Maarof

Diana Ibrahim

Samiah Edruce

Aainaa Syaiirah

and Khalis Manap

The best thing is I have this good friend of mine, Aqilah Hairan who is doing a degree on photography in UiTM Shah Alam and she is actually a freelance photographer too who does a lot of photography work for wedding and those kind of things. Plus, she just ended her internship period with Perempuan magazine and quite free at the moment or even if she's not free, I guess she made time for me *heeee*. Knowing her great talent and awesome awesome art work, I decided to invite her over to help me out and she AGREED! yeay!

Not just that, Kak Asni also agreed to sponsor our photoshoot with delicacies from her CuteBites. So, the awesome-ness doesn't stop just there when my friends agreed to this and Kak Asni wanting to serve us with cupcakes, macaroons, cheese tarts and all, but my childhood good friend, Ameera Mastura accepted my invitation to make her debut of BisouBisou Headbands. Man, I'm telling you, this babe really got the talent! She is able to make the headbands just like the famous Sereni & Shentel and some even better! So as I honestly believed in her talent, we agreed to collaborate for the photoshoot.

Here are some pictures behind the scene of the photoshoot =)

Then, later on we had lunch at my house. Thanks to my pretty Mother and Kak Asni who made the delicious chicken soup and bread, spaghetti, wedges, fried rice and some other stuff. Abbas Munir came over too since he was around the area at the moment. He was supposed to be on the road back to Kuantan but since he *bangun lewat kannnn* and good thing, we get to gather, though it was unplanned

Silent Killer

2011-06-17T10:28:00.004+08:00

There are words that you wish you never heard

There are words that you wish you haven't said

It's impossible

It will never happen

This, I'm telling you, it's too far reaching

The most impossible thing in the world

How we wished it never happened

But it did.

You watched my life from the corner

It hurts you over and over again

I guess you can't help me, not even this time

And I can't help to ease your pain

Will this be the silent killer of our time?

My Baby Baby =)

2011-06-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

Haaaaa this is the new header for TheCocoCloset

Got bored of the blog so often

That why I always want to make changes on it

The thing is I've been soooo busy with studies lately

I have not been paying much attention to my own blogshop

Cause it need so much commitment

Plus, the project paper is killing this semester!

*ergh I can't even believe I mention the word 'Project Paper' *

Almost feel like vomiting! Uwek!!

Anyway, do drop by my blogshop if you have the time

I'll be updating it at 8 pm tonight

Heeeee...

Here are the teaser for tonight's update =)

Simply Can't Live Without

2011-05-30T22:29:00.006+08:00

*and Jeffri*

*and Nik Muiz*

Even though we've changed

And we're all findings our own place in the world,

We all know that when the tears fall

Or the smile spreads across our face,

We'll come to each other because

No matter where this crazy world takes us,

Nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends

Truly great friends are hard to find,

Difficult to leave,

And impossible to forget

Snap Out of It!

2011-05-25T15:23:00.003+08:00

I'm smiling again today... alone

I don't know what is up with me

Am I delusional or something?

I don't think anyone can tell what is wrong (or right) with me

Listen to this, listen to that

Sometimes you might just get dizzy and confused again

So, I listen to one... my heart

It made me smile

Going through the photos and comments

Damn that's hilarious!

Laughed alone in the corner of the house

Then click exit!

Now back to reality,

Kak Asni is waiting for me to help her in the kitchen

One thing that never change about life. It goes on.

Thanks for quoting that =)

Random Awesome

2011-05-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

It just stuck in my head and attached very much to my lips at the moment

Yeah, weird at the time like this

I don't really know why I feel so connected to this song

I just feel like I can really relate to it

(Or maybe I know why, just don't want to admit it)

If only I've listen to it earlier,

I would have shared it ... =)

These are the verses that I know by heart in a day

"It all began with a simple confession
You had an urge to kiss me and
I was on the verge to miss you
And then it happen,
No
We didn't understand
No
I won't even budge
Before we didn't hang out much
So save me in your playlist
So you wont forget this
When things don't quite go your way
You'll still have me on replay

With your checkered shirt on
And my Reebok shoes on
Let's watch something random
Turned into something awesome

And I smile a lot now
A lot happier somehow
No I don't know what is up with me
I laugh too much recently
No, They don't know much about us
When we're exchanging glances
They'll figure out one day,
What happened on your 24th birthday"

(except nothing happened on your 24th birthday cause you not even 24 haha)

Hmmm...

I don't hate, hatred is never really in me anymore

I mean last time like 2 - 3 years ago, I used to hold grudges

I keep it very very nicely and neatly in my heart not show much of it

But then it all changes,

I learned to forgive and be more open-minded about things

Happiness happened, as simple as that

I see things and people that I don't actually favour, differently

I don't really know if right now I'm suppose to feel negatively

But somehow I don't hate

I will never hate

I had the time to think and I think wisely

Patiently, as a friend once told me

"Ain, I believe that great things happen to those who wait"

I cried, and I cried, and I cried

I somehow believed in it

I really don't know what it is

But I'm in no rush, because only time will tell

This thing in my head keeps flashing back on the good times I had

It made me smile and later made me cry

I'm not the type that cries a lot, I honestly believe that

But somehow this time I cry and cry and cry and then I think

How badly we want things in our lives to be normal and calm again

We just have to deal with it

And so I'm dealing... with very much patient

I don't know what will happen, I honestly don't

But I'm just being me... optimistic

I still remember

Each and every single thing that happened

I hold on tightly to it,

But it won't damage me

Because I'm just being me... realistic

Listen to this song : Random Awesome by Yuna Zarai

It's Vague

2011-05-22T16:35:00.004+08:00

Things in life is never too real and never too fake

Sometimes, you believed it to be so real that you forgot what reality is really like

Sometimes, you think that it is too fake and later you find some truth in it

Fairy tales are not liars nor are they believers

It's there to give us hope that no other person can give

For you to find that happiness, there's always things that may get in your way

But never ever look down on yourself

Look up, look up

We should be thankful that it is not the end of the world

There's chances that we need to take

There's hope that need its believer

There's kindness that need to be unleashed

And certainly there's nothing wrong with you

Because maybe we are still at the edge of confusion

There is a quote saying

"You cannot always wait for the perfect time,

sometimes you must dare to jump"

What is the perfect time and what is not?

Does perfect means that particular time,

And later we may let ourselves retreat?

It's vague, very vague that sometimes you jump and you don't know whether its suicide

And if it is suicide, you don't know whether you'll end up in heaven or hell

People always say you should be in hell first,

But what happens if you find that you actually in heaven first?

Have you been such a good person that you deserve the happiness upfront?

I never give up in faith

I do not think I have failed

I do not think we have failed

It needs to be clear, as crystal clear

For us to move forward and find ourselves

We just need to have faith and not turn ourselves against the world

Let's just face it

When Your Children Say The Sweetest Things

2011-03-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

I just came across these photos taken by Abang Ngah

which he posted on Facebook

It was Kak Ida's birthday on 15th March 2011

and I wasn't at home in Taman Tun that time

It just touches me when I saw the card Dini and Mira made for their mother

The wordings to be exact,

Really don't really care whether it's Dini's direct translation or whatever

It is just so sweet!

Coming from a 8years old and 4 years old,

Everything seem so perfect!

If you can't exactly see what they wrote!

"Mama, you just like a great mother,

Our heaven is under your foot. Love ya'!"

and the other side it wrote,

"Your my heaven!"

*doesn't really matter how they wrote it, it's just cute!*

Courtesy from CuteBites

Too cute to resist!

Picnic at Putrajaya

2011-03-21T15:57:00.009+08:00

Hmmm... I know I haven't been updating my blog for quite some time

Frankly speaking,

I really don't know where to start

A lot has change for the past three months in my life

When I say it changed, it REALLY changed!

Some may know, some may not know

Some just assume, some just don't give a damn

Honestly, it has been really hard for me

Really really hard that I honestly think that I could just break down

But I guess everything happened for a reason

And maybe the reason it didn't really work out well for me previously

is because there is something great is waiting for me

I am blessed with all the love in this world

I could not thank Allah S.W.T enough for giving me this happiness

after what I've been through

The most important thing is I will always know

that I'll always have my family, friends and him

Anyhow, just want to share some great picture we took

in Putrajaya in February

*We, as in, Ainaa, Muiz, Dira, Faisal, Sierra, Zaki and me*

and Wan Arissa too *lovesloves*

We went there for a picnic and we actually enjoyed our time there!

*love*

...seem to be so wonderful...

... when I have ...

... them ...

...in my life =)

*ouhkay, this is random! lol!*

Taylor Swift - Mine

2011-01-16T11:46:00.000+08:00

Britney Spears - Stronger

2011-01-09T10:56:00.000+08:00

Selena Gomez - Naturally

2010-12-31T17:44:00.000+08:00

Out of All The Buttons in This World, Why?

2010-12-23T16:13:00.004+08:00

Once broken, the heart is vulnerable

The second time it broke, it's just unacceptable

How can you just know how to press one button?

There's thousand of buttons in this world

And you just know how to press one

JUST ONE?

You know, there is 'alt' for alternate

There is always a button called 'shift'

I'm not asking you to press alternate,

Cause that would leave me hanging

And maybe you're not ready to press shift

But for God's sake,

There's always a button that you can press

And it is the 'ctrl' button

You have full control of your life

Why do you keep listening to the negative voices inside of you

Don't you have the courage press the other buttons?

Why it always have to be 'delete', 'delete', 'delete'!!!

What is so fascinating about this freaking button on your keyboard?

Why do you choose to 'delete' every single thing that you do or say?

Just so you know, dear...

You can never 'backspace' what you did to my heart and the other...

There can never be a 'backspace' in this situation

And you can never 'esc' from making your choice

There's no escape...

Deal with it.

This Empty Heart

2010-12-23T15:32:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt so hurt that

At one point there is really nothing left to feel?

This is exactly what I feel inside now

Exactly what I feel...

It's empty

I can actually feel the hollow space in my heart now

Every time I put my hand on my chest

There's really nothing there anymore

I am fine, I am calm

But somehow, I guess this feeling is just not right

It's not normal

No normal human being will feel this way after what happened

I tried, I did try to cry

I want to cry so hard that I want the whole world to know that I'm crying right now

But I just can't

I somehow feel stupid every time I cry because if I'll be able to see myself at the moment

I'll probably laugh it out

It's so funny seeing a person forcing herself to cry

It's just funny...

I've never thought that something like this will ever happen to me

Maybe 'cause I tried too hard,

Tried too hard to make thing work

Even though in the obvious, everybody else knows that it's not right

Why didn't anybody ever tell me that?

Maybe cause I kept most of the things that people should know only to my heart

I kept it so tight cause I don't want people to look down on me

The truth is,

I guess it's never really me

Why I keep blaming myself for the thing that's obviously not my fault

I am no monster, I am no saint either

But I know, whatever that I did, this is not what I deserve

I should realized this long time ago

I just wished that someone could have just slap me in the face

And shake the heck out of me

I just wished that I haven't wasted three years of my precious life

Chasing over something that is impossible and too far reaching

God has His plan,

A plan for me,

What I should do now is go find out what the plan really is...

I am going and I am never turning back.

Hana Tajima-Simpson, My Idol

2010-12-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

Have you ever heard of this name?

Hana Tajima-Simpson

She is a designer in London, United Kingdom

At first, I saw her photo together with Yuna

So, I thought that she's a Malaysian

*Yuna's best friend*

How wrong could I be,

She a mixture of Japanese and English

That explains her look though

I definitely adore her fashion sense

Well, if she can't get people to adore her,

How can she ever sell her clothes

That brings about this label, Maysaa

Go check it out, its her label

Ouh and find out more on her looks at StyleCovered

Just irresistibly fabulous!

I adore her and her fashion sense!

Oh Wardo!

2010-12-05T17:09:00.002+08:00

Oh Andrew Garfield

You just blew me off

The Social Network is the best movie ever!

*because you're in it! hahah*

Can't wait to see you again in the new Spider Man movie!

Loves!

*droooools*

Aidil Adha 2010

2010-12-05T14:07:00.006+08:00

You know what?

My family never takes Hari Raya so lightly

Be it either Aidil Fitri or even Aidil Adha

This time around, my dad has been planning this event for a year

*I, literally, mean A YEAR, macam kenduri kahwin pulak*

So, yeah this year we planned to do it our way

All my dad's brothers and sisters gathered their family

Under one roof, at their parents place

In Tandop,Alor Setar

It was a massive korban by our big family

Four cows and two goats!

Thats like empat kali kenduri lah nak abis kan!

1/3 of the korban was to be donated

1/3 was for our small kenduri

and the other 1/3 were to be distributed among us

Dad planned this so wisely that he even made each family wear the same colour

So, if you see in the pictures,

There's red, green, blue, black or orange

That means its from different family

*meaning my cousins and their parents*

Cool eh?

Dah macam hari sukan/ hari keluarga dah!

THIS IS EPIC!

Briefing before we slash them off!

With my cousin, the goaty!

Opss no, my cousin Atiqah!

*Rumah Biru in the house y'all*

This was my family's korban

Lembu Putih untuk Rumah Merah yee...

Yeap, did it ourselves with the help of orang kampung

Depressed kids who doesn't know the meaning of the 'killing' of the cows and goats

My aunts and uncles had to explain to them about korban since some of them were crying

*as if they understand*

Chop chop chop!

Geng Air!

Family number 1!

With my favourite cousins from Jitra =)

Spikey Zara Arissa!

These are the pictures on the second day

We have a small kenduri for families and orang kampung

Some pictures were taken by the experts of the family

Either Abang Long, Abang Ngah, Abang Akmal or Aizzad

*am not so sure which is which*

The pictures at the sawah bendang were taken without me

*sob sob sob*

because I wasn't feeling so well on the evening

Rugi nya rasa =(

Cousins, brothers and sisters

*without me, wuahh!*

*these are my favourites,

a lot more pictures taken, but I don't think I'll be able

to upload a whole lot of folders in here*

All in all, great job!

I had fun in Alor Setar with my beloved family

Hope the bond we have all this while will stay forever

My First Pet Ever

2010-12-05T13:08:00.008+08:00

Honestly speaking,

I hate animals *awful I know!*

I always say this to people

"I hate every living thing that moves other than human being"

So, for years I've been living in fear of getting near these creatures

And avoiding them as far as I could

But I guess there's a reason why I met Azhar

Why I say this?

*well actually my mum was the one who said this*

Well, he loves animals... no doubt

He has been taking care of lots and lots of cats at home before he met me

So, as time goes by, I guess he had made me better in a way

In what way?

Well, I used to hate Sambal Belacan

But now takleh makan nasi lah kalau takde sambal belacan!

He taught me though...

Same goes with animals too, I guess...

I am now very fond of animals...

*pet especially*

We decided to adopt few hamsters as a start...

So, here are our beloved Hamsters!

These were the first we bought

The brown one is Hampton

The cream one is Hamburg

We are kind of a big spender,

So we really can't bare to see our babies in small cage

We bought them this grand Habitrail house

which later turned to......

.... this massive extravagant house!

Muahahaha!

Told ya!

We want them to be perfect for the babies!

This is Hameline, by the way...

We bought her a week after we got Hampton and Hamburg

She is the only one with 2 colours...

Unfortunately,

Hamburg and Hameline left Mummy and Daddy already

I am extremely sad since I pampered them with all my heart

But I guess, hamster aren't pets that can live that long

Hameline died first and Hamburg died few days later

They died in Ipoh, as Azhar was the one who took care of them

While I was going back and forth to Putrajaya for attachment

at Attorney's General Chamber...

Well, I guess Hampton is gonna be lonely for quite some time

Before we get new friends for her

May you rest in peace my Darlings...

Mummy and Daddy loves you very much

Missing Something

2010-11-28T19:19:00.004+08:00

Honestly, I think that I am missing something
Or is it someone?
I feel empty though...
I need the space to be filled up a.s.a.p

Searching and Searching for 'Miss-Right'

2010-11-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

Hello there,

Are you looking for a room just for yourself?

This room is perfect if you're in for some privacy.

Availability: 2 rooms (one person each)+ both equally spacious room for one person + very comfortable

Rental: RM170 only per month (not including bills)

Deposit: 2months rent + rm100 (elec/water) + rm100 (maintenance)

Admission: Start paying rent on JANUARY 2011

Room: Probably furnished (Room1 cupboard and bed) + (Room2 cupboard + bed + study table)

House: Sofa, dining table, tv, stove, fridge(depends) and this house is not stuffy at all

Accomodation: Near to bus stop(rapid kl/seranas),uitm, unisel, food court, pasar malam, surau, shoplots

*currently this house is occupied by 3 law student from UiTM, 2 are moving out since they have ended their course. It'd be nice to have housemates who are also students from UiTM (but it doesnt really matter)

Interested?

Contact this number : 012-4330963 (ain)

Please just text first, I'll call you back if you're serious

Doesn't matter if your text me late at night. no prob!

Thank you!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Okay, firstly...

I wasn't even sure of whether to put this advert online or not

Secondly,

I'm still not sure whether this advert look inviting or not

Thirdly,

I'm pretty much not sure if I even want to live with strangers

Well, not that I knew Yazmine and Hanna when I first moved in

But I was pretty thankful that they're cool

And 'MYOB-kinda people'

Plus they are not sombong or anything with me

Which made me feel a little bit welcomed

And being all law student made us connected somehow

But now, since they're finished with law school

It kinda make me unease to find new people to live with

Seriously, I'm clueless in what I'm doing

Somehow, I just gotta do it and get it over with!

Dear God,

Please make this easy for me...

Amin!

Stress-Free Not!

2010-11-11T01:29:00.003+08:00

Final exam is over!

I'm free for a week

Then a week of raya in Kedah

And will then be starting my attachment at Attorney General's Chamber

Hmmm... worried!

I thought I'd be stress-free this holiday

Not I guess

My first night at home

Already missing them...

Hampton, Hamburg, Hamline

Mummy will be missing you

Be good with daddy,

Ill wait for the moment he will send you guys back to me

Should I go to court to get the custody?

For sure I'll lose

Miss the Daddy too...

Hmm, I'm sorry by the way

My Puppy Love

2010-05-22T03:05:00.003+08:00

He came over today
Bawak kereta se-slow kura-kura sebab nak jimat minyak
Which definitely worked!
And our trouble yang buat hati gundah gulana sudah sampai ke penghujungnya
You see, when something bad happen that makes you unhappy
There will seriously be joy that will come up next
I kept repeating it to him...
'Jangan risau, we still have time to work on it'
Yet, he kept cursing and cursing the nonexistent of the thing he wanted
TAPI...
Tak sampai 10% of the journey, tuhan dah bagi reward
Oh, thank god for that!
I am seriously, freakingly happy about it

New semester ahead!
Ah... I am soooooo looking forward for the new life!
Can't wait to live so close to each other
With minimal expenses that need to be spent each month
New me, New him, New us... heheh
*right, do u actually believed that*
Whatever it is, I am, at the moment, very very happy with what I have today

You must be wondering,
'What the heck is this annoying lady is talking about'
Ahh... It's a secret , but I just need to express my feeling at the moment
I AM A VERY HAPPY PERSON TODAY!
But basically, the arrival of Azhar Shah today made me very happy!
Not just the fact that he got what he wanted that makes me so happy
But he has been extremely sweet and lovely today
Sometimes, maybe the distance does play its role in a working relationship
How I really feel like 'a new love birds' flying around Shah Alam and KL city today
*giggle giggle giggle*

Being with each other the whole time
Can really makes you forget how you actually feel about a person
Because, he is just THERE AT ALL TIMES!
And you don't see it...
The truth , that is
The puppy love that you always want to hold on too
The love sick that you wish can never be cured
The feeling that makes you fell head over heels
IS STILL THERE!

So, remember!
Do take your time to look back and take a chill pill!
As you go down the memory lane...
When you feel like all of it has fade away...
You'll realize that it is all still there!

Love love love...
Oh, my puppy love!
*hehehehe*

The Stupid Careless Me!

2010-05-17T03:23:00.003+08:00

Crazy stuuupid thing I did today!

I've spent all day long to shoot my new collection for TheCocoCloset
I even stopped half way because I was soooo tired
Even my sister cannot go on any longer
Before the second session started,
I've transferred the photos to make room for new ones
I found out only in midnight that I actually deleted HALF of the shoot today!
*&*%&$&^%#!#@#$!!!!

Crazy feeling here!
I SOOOOO WANT TO SCREAM!
Blergh! Have to do it all over again?!

Howsoever,
Stay updated with TheCocoCloset yeah!
17th May 2010
7 pm!

New Place, New Life

2010-05-14T02:51:00.003+08:00

Hello bloggy!
I know, I have been so ignorant of you for the past few months
Blame your sister for doing this to you!
I put to much attention on TheCocoCloset huh?
True... True...

Ouh well,
The 3rd semester of BLS is not over
Part 4 next semester? Gosh... Moots!
One very sad thing happened this semester
The BREAK UPS!
Yeap! I broke up! So SAD right...
I broke up with my housemates
Those 5 devils, yeah, they pushed me away
We are no longer staying at Taman Cahaya Alam U12 anymore
We have gone to our separate ways
Guys, I totally understand and I don't blame you guys
Dah jodoh tak panjang, what to do
Well, I was on the hunt of a new room during MY FINALS
Seriously, major NO NO I'm telling you!
What a mistake I made, I can't focus on my studies
Boohoohoo... Kinda worried myself to much about the house
Sangat bahaya to my upcoming result, I'm just praying for the best
Apa tak nya, I was sooooo hooked up by the lappie!
I cannot stay still with my books without looking at the screen

Thank GOD
I found my dream room just before I go back to TTDI
It is a BIG PURPLE bedroom!
So spacious, I loved it!
Plus, it is much cheaper than the room I'm currently renting!
Lega...
Now I'm still on the hunt of another big and great room near my new place
For the person who had sacrificed so much for me
Even though I didn't even asked him to do so
Thanks for volunteering, so nice of you!
Promised that we'll be as near as possible to each other to ease our movement!
Plus we get to save a lot of money with this new place!
Yippie! Nak kumpul duit! Ada projek!

Saya sangat happy
Next semester will be a new life to us!

Sick World

2010-03-25T20:34:00.006+08:00

Sometimes you feel sick
Sick of most of the things that is happening
Sometimes you make yourself feel sick
Even though, no one knows that you are feeling sick
Well, that is the thing with the sick world
No one cares but you care too much
The only person who knows and bothers
Is you yourself...
Without realizing it,
You are making yourself feel sick of you
So dear... take a chill pill lah!
*haih, reminding myself to not be a sick person*

My Lover For Now

2009-12-20T23:40:00.004+08:00

Sorry that I've been neglecting this blog
for almost 2 week already

I'm just too in love with my business now
All going well
Most of the items offered have been SOLD OUT
I feel so happy that The CocoCloset
actually gained a lot of fans in Facebook!

Thank God for all this
Thank you also to
My parents
Kak Asni
Azreena
and my very very good male adviser
Azhar Shah
and my loyal shoppers especially
Kak Azian!
hahahah

All of you have been helping me so much!
It's not about the money that I care
It's the passion that is exposed
I am glad that I've taken this opportunity
and took the risk

These are new photos of the packaging and labels
that I've been working on

Do you like it?
I'm trying to present the best to my customer!
Just like how I like to be treated if I am the customer!

Do visit my blog shop
The CocoCloset <3

The CocoCloset by AinSalleh

2009-12-13T02:03:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!

I have been so busy for the past few days!
Like seriously weih!
Can't really afford to do long post at the moment
Working on this really cool project!
It's my very own blog shop... yeay!
Do take your time and visit The CocoCloset by AinSalleh

Super fun thing to do this holiday!

p/s: When is the holiday going to end? OMG, NO!!

Sad Story For Faithful Husband Out There

2009-12-08T15:12:00.003+08:00

It is so sad ... very sad
What will happen...

When a husband actually allow the wife to involve in activities
Where he knows the wife has interest in
Let say political activities (example, really)
Giving the chance for the wife to meet people
Express her ideas freely
Be independent, be the woman she is
Voice out her agreement and disagreement

But later on finds out that
The wife actually tells stories to people
Saying that her life is uninteresting
Because her husband is such a boring person
And a very quiet one, indeed

What is more disappointing is that
When she meets people with the same interest
She would want to talk
And suddenly the personal stories are open to be discussed?
She prefers to share the stories of her marriage
With a complete stranger?
A young man in his early twenties
Letting people know the weakness of the husband
Behind her husband back?
Plus, she enjoy others companion on Facebook
Rather than talking to her own husband?
*ish, how damaging Facebook can be?*
And hello?
A 20 year old man? Really?
Pitiful, very pitiful...

God, that is so sad...
Perlukah seorang isteri menceritakan aib suaminya kepada orang lain?

Please keep your pathetic personal life story to yourself
There's no need to involve other people in this
What actually is she looking for?
A man that is not he husband to fulfill her needs?
Woman, I am telling you,
What you should really do is talk to your husband
Communicate! That's not so hard isn't it?
Dosa jadi kurang, pahala boleh tambah
Anyway, have some pity towards the children
If only they knew the mother is begging
Begging for sympathy from another guy
Who is beyond her league

If it is wrong for a girlfriend to do it to her man
A fiancee to talk crap with another guy about her guy
Let alone a wife...

I just hope that when I become a wife one day
And this kind of problem arises
I will handle it professionally
How the reputation of a woman will be tarnished completely
Just because of a single word that she said

*well this has nothing to do with anyone I know* but..
Honestly, I feel sad knowing a woman can do such things
To the person they love
Maybe I am not the person who should talk about marriage
Who am I to judge?
But I believe that,
Even a reasonable man who hears this
Will know that this is wrong!
Please take note...

P/s: Kalau lelaki buat pon sama jugak!

Frustration by Incapacity

2009-12-05T14:26:00.003+08:00

Supposedly, I should be in Ipoh by now
Eating nasi minyak at Effa's
Taking lots and lots of photos with the girls
Too bad this is not what I am doing right now
Susah jugak for me to get the permission for this trip
Today I woke up by the voice of Ayah asking me
'Haih, kata nak pergi Ipoh... Apasal tak pergi?'
Tak jadi lah!

Diana Ramlan is down with fever *poor her*
Sara Aisha is in Jakarta as there's an emergency
Amira Aziz's parents just got back from Italy
Ameera Masture herself juuussttt got back from Italy
Ili Atira couldn't make it
Same goes to Hanim

Leaving only Faiznur and I... free for anything
But it wouldn't be as much as fun if the rest are free too
So sorry Effa!
Takde rezeki lah...
And so sorry Eya
Tak dapat nak gi tour Ipoh with you this time
Next time, you show me around okay!
Miss you though...

I Wanna .. I Wanna...

2009-12-03T14:00:00.005+08:00

I want to cook

Superb like Mak!

I want to bake

Great like Kak Asni

I want to sew
Just like Annur

I want to dance

Crazy like Eya

I want to do a lot of things!

But haih... why am I so lazy?

*jom pergi kick-boxing class?!*

Kidnapping!

2009-12-02T11:06:00.005+08:00

See!
Told ya he would wake me up damnnn early this morning
I do not need an alarm clock if he is like this everyday when the classes start
*yeah right! like that's going to happen eh*

Mak woke us up this morning
Demanding that we should go to 'kelas tajwid' dekat masjid
Aiyahhh... Macam kena pergi sekolah agama time sekolah dulu pulak
And so we went...
Dah semangat ni, suddenly TokLang being the orang kuat of masjid came
'Lah, hari ni Ustaz Dino cuti, dia raya lagi'
Ceh... *dalam hati- fiuhhh! nasib baik*
Hahah...

And so, we went back
But we manage to kidnapped a girl
Mariam *the cousin* wanted to tag along
Since Dini is on holiday and Mira is at home too
We 'kidnapped' her so that she could come and play PS at our house

Benda Baru love

2009-12-01T23:16:00.005+08:00

I love new things
Who doesn't , especially when you can call it yours
There are four of us still staying at home with Mak and Ayah
Akmal has his own 'cave' to hide in
Everything he has he doesn't need to share *best nyerrr*
While me... sharing a room with my older and younger sisters
Also means I have to share my closet with Eena while K.Asni got the whole other
Almari pon rasa boleh pecah if I sumbat everything inside tau!
My stuff is not getting any lesser yea!
*Gawd! That's not enough for my clothes okay!*
After years of living in this room... *lama kut!*
Ayah and Mak were sooo generous to buy us a new wardrobe
Yeay!

Despite the darkness of this room,
I still think that my room is one of the coziest place on earth!
*This is mine and K.Asni's bed! Eena campak jauh-jauh!*
Nah, hers is at the other side of the room

Ini dia, si jantung hati baru ku!
Simple piece which caught my attention!
Hahaha... over!
*Show off, Ain ni! Orang lain punya lagi besar!*

Mati kah?

2009-12-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

I think I know someone who just died
I was on the phone with him this morning
Chat which lasted less than an hour
I hear nothing from him later on
Until now, still nothing
I think he is dead...
Rest in piece...

*how can you sleep from evening till the next morning!?!*
Gosh! I think that boy really died in his sleep!
Takpe lah... biar lah dia tido...
Esok pagi mesti kejut orang awal pagi paksa bangun...haih!

Scared!

2009-12-01T01:28:00.002+08:00

I am scared you might be lost

You are scared I might leave you

Great... let's get scared if that's the case
Enjoy being a scare-dy cat!

*I am scared that I might be fat!*
So random!

We Are Happy Now

2009-11-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

What would you do,
If you dream of something so absurd
You knew it was in the past
And are willing to let it go...
You knew you hurt him
But sure that he'll never be there again?
Ouh such a crazy thing to dream about him
It's not right at all...
I cannot afford to be so unfaithful even in my dreams
Bukannya I solat istikharah untuk minta petunjuk or what not
It's not like I have to choose between these two
I've been with my man for such along time
And left the past years ago
So why did I dream about him?
Do not assume you know about the person I'm talking about
Because I don't think anyone would ever guess it's him

*it is just a dream*

But the feeling is real!

*it is just a dream*

But it felt so right!

*it is just a DREAM, and he's happy now and so are you!*

...well I guess you're right
It is just a dream that I shouldn't think about
Wherever you are, I'll pray for you
Sorry I failed you
But I am happy now
And I know you are too
Let it be...

*p/s: No...no... it's not him... so stop guessing, it's NOT him*
...whoever you think it is...

Hello Bloggy!

2009-11-26T19:37:00.006+08:00

I think tomorrow is Aidil Adha
And this post is still at the same page of Aidil Fitri's post?
Errr.... No wonder, Meera, you asked me to update
The bloggy is totally out-dated!
Gosh...

As usual, I must be at home whenever I update my blog
So yeah... I'm at home in Taman Tun
Almost been a month already
*...and another month to go??*
Ouh brother! What am I suppose to do??

Update update!

18th Nov
That boy who stays faaaaarr away wanted to come over
Just to buy a shirt?
Came with his sister and hung out together

19th - 22nd Nov
Langkawi trip! wuhoo!
The journey started with KL Central - Arau - Kuala Perlis - Langkawi
Went to Arau by train and then off to K.Perlis by cab
From Arau to Langkawi , took the ferry
And Kuah to Cenang we got a bus
The next day, island hopping session with the boats
Lastly, we travelled back home by flight
From Langkawi Airport to KLIA
Fiiiiuuuhh! What an adventure!
It was all worth the effort...

25th Nov
Finally get to spend time with Lil Miss New Zealand
Atiqah is back home in Malaysia for her holiday
While Khalis in still in town for the meanwhile
Before she sets her foot in Bangkok and Jakarta
Leyna errr... lecture I guess, not available
Diana busy with her meeting making advertisement for Shell
So there's just the three of us
Laughs all the way...
Went down the memory lane...
Teringat time sekolah dulu-dulu!

* we had lunch at Paddington's House of Pancakes, by the way*
YUMMY!!

Is It An Absurd Way To Love?

2009-11-16T17:51:00.003+08:00

Suka sangat dengan lagu Jay Sean 'Down' tu kan?
Tak habis-habis nyanyi lagu tuh

No, I cuma rasa mengarutnya dia akan sayang perempuan tuh ...
'even if the sky is falling down, down, down'

Oh, mengarut is it?
At least he loves his girl 'even if the sky is falling down'...
You tuh?

*pause with a smile*

'Even if the sun won't shine, shine, shine...'

*Tuh tak mengarut pulak kan? okay...*

Lame-ness

2009-10-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

Eeee! Bosannya blog saya ni!
Previous posts sounded very depressing
Macam mana nak buat ye?
I am a very lame person
Period.

Feel This

2009-09-24T20:07:00.002+08:00

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Try and catch me now
It's too late
To catch me now.

Thanks to Fyqa for this song
Now I can fully feel this song

Raya Yeay!

2009-09-20T11:15:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri to all!
My house is full today, in Taman Tun that is
Tak balik raya kat Kedah pon meriah jugak!
That is what I love about celebrating my raya here in KL
Few years already I haven't got the chance to go for raya prayer
Today I made it!
I am very happy this raya!
Dah lah baju raya cantik
I'll update on my raya again!

Your Freaking Sad Life

2009-09-19T13:47:00.002+08:00

You are a total bullshit to me
You lied and you cheat
You asked for a chance?
In your freaking dream!
I will not forgive nor will I forget
You don't deserve happiness in this world
Because you made me so pissed off
And I hate you so much
Sometimes I wish you would just die
But then again, when I think about it
Just go live you freaking sad life!

You are not welcome in my life
Thank you and please don't come again!

Thanks For The 2 Years

2009-09-08T10:37:00.003+08:00

Dear Azhar Shah...

Thanks for staying here with me
Two years doesn't feel so long
It is as if I just met you months ago
There are so much to learn about you
Hope this will last till the end of time
Happy 2nd Anniversary, dear...
Will always love you no matter who you are

Making My Time

2009-09-07T23:34:00.003+08:00

It has been a long week this week
Did lots of things with friends
And I can honestly say that
I am now loving myself more than I ever did
Thanks to them for making me realize it
I am now the person who I was once before
Way way way before!

Anyway, I finally get the chance to hangout with my DJians friends
And yes, they teased me for being unavailable all the time
Sorry guys... I'll make time for you guys okay!

One Phrase with 12 Words

2009-09-01T09:05:00.003+08:00

I still remember
Will always remember
You mentioned to me just once
And never again
But I do not know why
This phrase I take seriously
Maybe it meant something
I don't know what it means
What good does it in store for me
Maybe God wants me to be strong
Want me to realize of things
At a very young age,
I have to learn....
To deal with big problems
To handle emotion and feelings
I have been through a lot
And maybe this... is one of the first
Even so, I will always remember your words to me.....

"I know you can be with me till the sun won't shine"

I will be there for you
Until the sun won't shine

I Am Here To Stay

2009-09-01T07:56:00.003+08:00

Gone
Is it gone?
Trust
How to trust?
Love
Will it fade?
Strong
Be it wrong?
But what I am sure of...
My faith
Will never fail

I don't know how to handle this
It is not want I expected
This is not what I wish for
In... I am always in
But this?
It's not what I am in for
Out... There's always a way
But it is not what I am here for

My faith will get stronger
Towards you I believed deeply
Changed is needed at once
Thus courage will help you be

I am not here to back off
I am not here to hate
I am not here to judge
For you, I believe will change

Don't be arrogant
Humble so not
You are better in every way
Just prove that the thoughts are wrong

I tried to sleep in last night
Digesting words that I heard
Try to dream too last night
But dream seem to fade away
I woke up this morning
With feelings in my guts
Am I strong enough to be there?
To watch you drift away

No!
I will not let you go
No matter who you've become
I will not let you go
Till my very last breath
I will not let you go
So there's a place to hold on
I will not let you go
No matter how you push me away

Thank you for telling me
The truth about things
Even though it isn't me
I am here to rise you up again

Give me the strength I need
I'll give you reasons to stay
Because believe me my love
I am here to stay

Sometimes I Am Happy

2009-08-31T13:25:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I am happy....

I am happy because I have found my baju raya
Thanks to Abang Long for the sponsorship
Thanks to Kak Azian for the long hunting
Thanks to Ena for supporting
Thanks to Kak Asni for criticizing
Most of all, thanks to Ayah and Mak
For telling me that something shines through that baju kurung of mine
When I am not happy about it

I am happy to see Mak today
In her black and white baju kurung
With sequins to merry her a little
Carrying a file in her hand
Driving the Perdana on her own
(not that she couldn't but Ayah does most of the driving)
Her face seem so bright and calm
She smiles when I spoke
And I thought....
She is perfectly fine on her own
She doesn't need Ayah to be by her side at all times
Maybe I can do that too

I am happy I am not alone in this world
I have so many people around me
Maybe I have been blind before
Blinded by the love of a man who changed a lot
Now I see, the people who I always put second on the list
Are the people who will always be there for me
Through ups and downs
Through thick or thin
If I were to have a list of 'Thanks' like I have above
I will be guilty myself for missing out on some names
There's too many of them
And I am glad that I could say that...
... 'there's just too many of them'
Thank you all... you people make me so happy
I am so happy...

Perkara Gila 963

2009-08-28T18:16:00.008+08:00

Saya banyak buat benda gila minggu ini
Saya rasa awesome sangat sebab saya okay sekarang
Saya rasa hidup ini adil *against most ppl's opinion*
Saya rasa bersyukur sangat!

Apa yang saya sudah buat?

Scared three partly-innocent gentlemen
Tanpa disengajakan pada pukul 4 pagi
Dan mengugut untuk merosakkan kereta mereka
Kerana terdengar perbualan mereka yang sangat memedihkan tentang perempuan
*totally out of my mind*

Menakutkan housemate yang sememangnya,
Tak pernah melihat saya jadi gila
Berkelakuan pelik sehingga mereka tercengang dan speechless
Tak tahu nak buat apa

Keluar rumah pada tengah malam dengan baju tidur
Bersama 5 orang kawan-kawan lain yang tengah study untuk test
Tinggal buku dalam bilik lalu memenuhi kereta Rush milik Samiah
Untuk mencari mercun dan lighter

Berjalan ke hujung lorong rumah ke taman permainan yang sunyi
Tidak pernah di kunjungi orang
Dan meletupkan beberapa chasing-bomb
Sambil melakonkan adegan Titanic di atas slide
Ada seorang Pak Lebai yang asyik memandang dengan sinisnya ke arah kami

Ber-shisha dengan kawan-kawan perosak
*Saya tahu ber-shisha bukan perkara yang jahat*
Tapi saya tak pernah dare to do it
Until that night when 9 tables were joint together
Dan kawan-kawan mengajar saya menyedut dan menghembuskan asap wangi
Sampai saya sakit tekak keesokan harinya
Terus high dan menggoda Paan dan Pian di tepi motor rempit nya

Melalak di dalam *bas sekolah* Samiah sehingga hilang suara
And decided to keep on driving sampai ke suatu tempat yang menyesatkan
Tak tahu ke mana, dah jauh sangat merantau
Lalu ternampak sign Putrajaya, terus ke Putrajaya
*tetapi hujan malangnya*
Keep on going sampai semua tak larat buka mata kerana sudah pagi buta
*dan esok nya ade tiga case review dan satu test yang tak disentuh notanya*
Esoknya kantoi di dalam class MLS

Berniat ingin meniru untuk test Mandarin *which I forbid myself to do*
Kerana cuak tak tahu satu perkataan pon untuk bab 4,5 dan 6
Duduk lah bersama 3 orang kawan sejati yang pandai-pandai belaka
Surprisingly, test dilakukan dengan sepintas lalu tanpa hesitation
Niat jahat tak jadi diteruskan , Alhamdulillah
*Tuhan sayang saya lah tuh, taknak bagi buat jahat*

Buka puasa di rumah Dolly bersama 10 yang lain
*tak cukup gila buat saya*
Tetapi tak ingat dunia gelak macam gorilla di dalam bilik berhawa dingin yang kecil
Sambil lihat ******.... terpaksa di censored apa yang berlaku pada malam itu
Gambar juga tak dapat dipaparkan di tempat awam sepeti Facebook
Wild night ended at 12am kerana ramai ada class pagi esok hari
Bercadang meneruskan episode berikutnya minggu hadapan

Menjadi bini kepada seorang jejaka bijak yang perasan
Yang mahu memadukan saya bersama 2 orang "adik beradik" saya
Kerana dia rasa dia hebat
"Kekanda, kenapa tak message adinda hari ini? Sunyi rasanya"
Tolong lah! Tak mungkin saya rela dimadukan

Menggoda Zaki Shah tanpa disengajakan
*called him for other reason actually*
Dan berpendapatan dia senang ditipu dengan suara yang lembut
Dan dia teruja apabila ada perempuan mencarinya
Tak dapat teruskan sebab terpaksa ketawa kuat-kuat

Tak pernah dia buat selama 20 tahun hidup di dunia
Saya dan rakan-rakan serumah yang sedang "bercuti" puasa
Ke McDonald drive-thru dengan muka yang tebal tengahari ini selepas class
Dan terkejut melihat barisan kereta yang panjang
Semuanya perempuan-perempuan Muslim belaka *ramai cuti ek?*
Baru hari ini saya tahu bahawa perkara ini memang terjadi...
Naif nya saya!

Perkara terakhir yang berlaku
Disakiti selepas dua tahun
Tanpa disengajakan, dan kemudian disengajakan
Saya sedang muhasabah diri, harap begitu juga di sana
Doa agar egonya tak memakan diri sendiri dan orang lain
Sedia menerima, apa yang terbaik
40% untuk dia, 60% untuk saya
Harap 40% akan tetap nilainya dan tak berkurang

Apa-apa yang jadi, pasti ade hikmah disebaliknya

p/s: Tak tahu kenapa skema sangat hari ini.

Jeff's Birthday - The Gardens, One Utama

2009-08-16T02:03:00.004+08:00

It was a plan by Diana
Jeff had no idea that Diana and I were there
I had it at the Gardens, One Utama
A charming place to catch up with each other
Happy 20th Birthday Dear Jefri!
DJians stick together!

Diana Ibrahim

Azlan Johar

Birthday Boy, Jeffri!

Ashraf Zakaria

And of course, there's me
Ain Salleh

Turkey Sandwich
RM15.90

My so irrelevantly small grilled chicken
Grilled Black Pepper Chicken
RM17.90

Carbonara
Can't remember the price

Ice Lemon Tea
Came together with the lunch set

Can't remember the name and the price
Anglia something something
It was kinda plain and dry

Soup of the day
Diana said it was asparagus
Also came together with the lunch set!Chicken Paprik
Which taste nice
RM12.90Happy Birthday
We love you, Jeff!
Happy 20th Birthday Jeff!

Shyqim's Surprise Party - Rahsia Restaurant & Bar

2009-08-16T01:23:00.005+08:00

Thanks to Ubye for making this possible
Very sweet of him to surprise Shyqim
On her birthday
It was held on 5th of August 2009
Happy 20th Birthday Shyqim!
At Rahsia Restaurant & Bar
Jalan Damai, Kuala Lumpur

Rahsia Restaurant & Bar, KLThe lovely table settings for us
It was at the terrace

Non-alcoholic cocktail
Asmara and Envy
RM11

Kinda romantic too

Can't remember the name of the dish
But this is salmon
RM38

Tenderloin Stick
Very very nice!
RM55

Shy's birthday cake made by her sister

Shyqim & Ubye

Azhar & Ain

Night to remember

With the whole crowd

Ain got the whole leftover of the cake...
Which was half of it!

No secrets between me and you...
Tiada Rahsia...

I love you, Shyqim!

Shmr Babes For Life

2009-08-15T23:38:00.008+08:00

Ever since we were 16 years old

We stayed together as one entity
Go through tears and happiness
Shared stories which was ever untold
After leaving the school in 2006
We were never complete again
Sometimes 3, sometimes 4
Somehow it was never 6
Never complete
I tried to make it happened
Together with them
To reunite the gorgeous ladies I've ever known
And here we are
On 8th of August 2009
It's good as the olden days
Where we sat together
In Bora Asmara, Sg. Pencahala
Reminiscing the days we had together
The Shmr Babes are back
Once again, we are complete

Bora Asmara, Kg. Sg. Penchala
A very nice place to hang out
Very beautiful land

Mature then ever

Wanee Darus
~ShmrNee~

Erna Farhana
~ShmrNa~

Eliza Dzulkafli
~ShmrLy~

Fyka Shafie
~ShmrKa~

Shyqim Ghazali
~ShmrQim~

Ain Salleh
~ShmrAin~

Happy 20th Birthday Dear Shyqim
May god bless you

Farewell Dearest Eliza
You'll always be in our heart 3 in 1
The real cupcakes before it got smashed by the cheese tart!

~Farewell Elly~
~Shmr Babes~
~Shy's 20th~We're hot. We're smart. Fabulous, in short.
Honestly... If I were you, I'd be intimidated.
I have good reason. *sigh*
Narcissism is SUCH an indulgence.

SHMR BABES FOR LIFE.

It's Your Time

2009-08-01T01:24:00.003+08:00

To my dearest sister, Ena...
Congratulations on your great and awesome result
I know from the start that you'll make it great somehow
Somewhere in this world, there's always a place for you
A place where you can declare as your point
The point where you can say "I did it!"
I am so proud of you
I know Mak and Ayah are proud of you too
Even though you gave Mak the shock of her life
By jumping on her bed while she was asleep
*which I personally want to cekik you for doing that*
Make it big next time!
You go girl...

Congratulations, dear!

Panas Bangat!

2009-07-31T18:00:00.003+08:00

What do I hate right now?

1) The weather in Malaysia...
Or rather the climate change happening all around the world

2) The lousy air-conditioner in my room
Why is it still so hot even though I've put it on 16' degrees!
Rosak ke apa ni?!

3) The crazy electric bills that come every month with huge enormous amount to be paid
And obviously left Mak nagging us at all time for switching on the air-cond 24/7

4) Those who came into the room and not close the door
Which makes the room feel warm again
The cool air goes out of course!

5) My sweaty feet and palms
Which usually is not a problem of mine!

6) My getting-longer-hair which make me feel uncomfortable most of the time

7) The stupid hairband that always goes missing
Or rather the stupid me for not remembering where I've put it

8) My freaking oily face which looks so shiny because the air feel so hot
And it generates oil rather than sweat!

9) My annoying spectacles for keep on sliding down my nose
Due to the oiliness of my face!

10) The ungrateful me for complaining so much
*Sedangkan panas api neraka jauh lebih panas dari ini*

*Guulppp*
I'll stop listing right there!

Is This Short?

2009-07-31T17:31:00.003+08:00

Do you want more photos?
Less photos?

Do you want more words?
Less words?

At some point of my journey with this diary-like blog
I feel tired of writing
Not really tired, more like having not enough time
To crack the words heck out of my head
There goes few posts of mine that contain mainly photos
Rather than word itself...
Not very long time ago

'Ain, kenapa letak gambar jer dalam blog? Write something'
Now, I am writing....
I realized that when I write
It's rather long, never short
A friend of mine said this to me *you know who you are*
'Mkcik! tak prnh type pendek2 ek? ayat slalu nk pjg je'
See, even she can shorten the words in this sentence
And frankly, I tried to correct her spelling and all
But left it just the way it is, because I feel pathetic
I am trying to train myself to write short post
Because sometimes when I browse through peers' blogs
I find it very uninteresting to see thousands of words
And kept looking for pictures
NO IMAGES seem to be boring!
Starting from now, I've decided to take more pictures again
And let you readers know of what is going on with my life
*as if people really want to know lah kan*
Somehow, that's the whole point of having a diary-like blog kan kan kan???

Umm... I should freaking stop typing write now...
*tak puas nyer!*

My Peaceful Territory

2009-07-30T17:50:00.005+08:00

I should wait until I can snap few photos of my home sweet home
In Taman Cahaya Alam, U12 Shah Alam
But just need to update this blog...
So far these are some pictures of my house
Or rather my room *my territory*
I am loving it already!

This was during the hunting of the perfect house

The peaceful looking neighbourhoodWent shopping at Ikea for my new room
Not much because many of the stuffs are from home
But kinda made Ayah go botak jugak
Thank you Mak and Ayah for fulfilling my needs
You guys meant the world to me
I couldn't thank you enough for all the things that you have done for meBought...
A white sofa bed that is very stable...
A Billy rack in white...
A long mirror to hang on the wall...
A pink round carpet,small...
A pink, red, yellow & orange stripy cloth for the curtain...
A white scarf hanger...
A white paper basket...
6 frames to add some artistic value to my room
Like this...
I personally chosed the 6 pictures
As it look kinda unique in its own wayAnd taaraaa!
This is my cosy room...
It's very small but enough for me to live in
It gave me the aura of peacefulness when I'm in my room
I just feel calm and happy most of the timeAs you can see, the theme is mostly pink and white
Well, maybe some colours are there to complement each other.
I love colours and to me, we don't get cranky
when beautiful colours surrounding us
I need colours to survive everyday of my life!You wouldnt guess that it's actually a sofa bed kan?
It's rather small but just right for me as I am not that big either
And do you notice there's a big hot pink butterfly on the wall above the soft board?
I've had it since I was in Form5
Always bring is around, wherever I go...This is the other side of the room
I don't actually plan on getting a cupboard as my proper closet
This is enough since most of the time my clothes will be in the luggage
If it's not in the laundry bag
I go back to Taman Tun, most of the weekends
Thus, I barely even use the washing machine there
Umm never actually...
Anyway, the hangers are to hang mostly my handbags,
worn outfits, towels and washed baju kurungs
that are safely sealed in the white syntetic bag
The green and white drawers on the left is to keep the small items
....most of the time, it empty, really....And finally...
One of my lunatic housemate
I do not know why, but I just have to post this photo of her
Mia wouldn't mind
She'll love it... as her brain is partly retarded
Heheheheheheh...

Soon, I will post the pictures of the living room
Dining hall
Kitchen
Porch
Toilet (err...we'll see about that)
Laundry area
and more on the neighbourhood itself
It's a very nice place, I tell you!
Hopefully the developer will open up shoplots there
So that it will be easier for us to buy our needs

Til then, tata!

3 Weeks Later....

2009-07-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

I think, it was a big big big mistake
I did not mean for it really happen
I was just being paranoid and lazy bum
I do not want to extent the 2 months holiday
Nor do I want to get some unexpected extra holidays
It has only been 3 weeks, for God sake
The lecturers were just about to heat up the lecture hall
Tutors has just started their first class
And there we go again
A week holiday of early mid term semester break
It's suppose to be a week holiday for Raya
But not anymore... of well...
Here's are some updates on my activities.......

LW2131B (B group)

The fun was cut into half
When only half of the B members stay in the group
While others were moved to C group
Though Mia isn't with us anymore, Mok and I are doing well
Mia will only be separated with us for tutors for core subject
Other than that we remain inseparable
Daus and Kamil made good combination of class representative
Plus Mok for Law of Tort
So far so good
B managed to stay clean from maniacs from other groups
Maniacs as in 'orang-orang yang over' (know who? =p)
I love my group from this semester!

Sekretariat Mahasiswa Faculti

Team building in Lembah Pangsun was superb
We had so much fun doing water confidence, rafting, flying fox
Jungle trekking, night walk and mandi sungai was great too
This camp really changed a lot of us in terms of team work

Induction for the Part 1 was great too!
The juniors were great and the volunteers were amazing
Perhaps the coolest and the best induction ever!
Ouh yeah, I have to deal with the food caterers again
Khulafa is officially my skandal!

Next event in line is Sukan Antara Fakulti (SAF)
Well it suppose to be on 24th July-9th August
But because of the unexpected and uninvited holiday
It will be postponed to a later date that is yet to be confirmed
Perhaps it will resume on the 4th of August
Just be ready to all of the athletes of Law Faculty
You guys will be in action really soon

Taman Cahaya Alam

I honestly and deeply in love with this house
I never felt so much at home when I'm away from TTDI
Perfect kitchen for us to cook
Living hall for us to hang out and watch television and all
Dining hall for us to serve food and dine
Nice and secure porch for the cars
Peaceful neighbourhood....
Most importantly, the cosiest small bedroom I have ever had!
I'm going to post some pictures of my house
Share some nice pictures of my U12 house

So far, that's all that I need to update
Sorry for not updating the blog for quite a long time
I'm planning to take up on broadband plan later
Going to update soon!

Can I Get Another 2 Months?

2009-06-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

My eyes feel sore right now
Yet, I couldn't sleep
He's out with friends
Made him promise to come home by 1am
Don't think he'll manage to do that
Boys will always be boys
Luckily he doesn't do it too often
If not... haiyoh...

Mak just came in
'Amboi boleh tuh tahan mata depan laptop sampai 12am'
I looked at the time, 'Aik? Dah 12am ker?'
Time flies without me realizing it
Just like this 2 months holiday, tak rasa pon
Who would have thought,
This semester break seem so short, unlike before...
I have like... just one more week to stay
Hoping to go shopping tomorrow, but don't know lah
This weekend I'm going to get my stuff ready
Monday go get the keys to the new house
Tuesday... ehmmm... bring in the stuff first
Wednesday maybe I'll paint the room?
Hahahahhaha...
Hope my parents will be kind enough to let me spend money on the paints
I'm thinking of ermmm...white or cream wall with green and pink murals on it
Thursday maybe get some rest before Friday
Need to pack up for SMF team building pulak...
Friday, Saturday and Sunday...
Team Building for SMF, at Lembah Pangsur perhaps
Then on the 5th come back home for family dinner
Planned to have steamboat ala-ala Johnny's! Weee!
Abang Long is due to come back from Kuwait
Then the day after, class start...
Haihhh.... ohmigod! What a hectic week awaits

Can I like.... take a break!
Belum start lagi dah penat!
Hahahahha!

Home Sweet Home

2009-06-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

It took like forever for us to get the keys
The keys to a place that we can finally call home
Tomorrow, Mia and I was suppose to go to Shah Alam
Meet up with Syed Azzman (Mr.Dude) and have the final look at the house
Before we can really move in
Unfortunately, the sofas are not out yet
Yes, we do not need the sofas as the space is needed for other purpose
I hope all the plugs can work especially the ceiling fans
I hope there will be refrigerator for us to be used
The grass should be well cut and neat
So that Myra's mum can actually have a nice time gardening there
Heheheheheh...Thank you Auntie for the lovely thoughts
And most importantly I really need the house to be clean!
If it still look the same as the last time we saw it
Then... Mr.Dude is going down! eceh...

But anyway, we couldn't move in just yet...
So, we will just have to wait for Monday
I've packed up some of my stuff
Well, actually just some clothes that I need to wear to classes
There's like one whole luggage of it
Not including the baju kurungs though...
Hahah... I do not know why but I packed like I'm leaving for months
Eh... not that critical lah kan...
Maybe I'm just so excited about moving in
And then again... Haziq Azlan just did the silliest thing in the world
He told me last night that he was suppose to get a house there too
In U12, Cahaya Alam that is
But they changed their minds because according to Haziq
"Ain, itu tempat jin bertandang!"
Okay, I am not easily fooled by his stupid and annoying jokes
Nor those stupid stories about ghosts and stuff like that
But this time it really creeps me out since...well...
The place is pretty damn new
And there's not many neighbourhood around that area yet
Well...it could be, right?
Especially when I'm the only one who will be living downstairs alone
Errr...

But no lah!!
It's going to be fine...
Anyway he didn't actually give me a real storyline to believe in
Plus, he just laughed when I asked him to stop telling me that
Nahhh... that's not true!
Plus the place is habitated by lots and lots of families around our house
It looks cosy and nice too...
I'll snap few pictures of the neighbourhood when we move in later on
Well... living with 5 other friends might be nice
Especially they are those yang gila-gila punya orang
Mia, Sis, Myra, Bella and Mok
Frankly speaking, eventhough I knew them since 2007
I never really thought that I would be close to them
Like we are today...
They are like this one crazy and chaotic gang
That always caught people's attention with the very sarcastic behaviour
Loud but all of them are very very very pretty, honestly
However, since BLS part1 this year
I became very close to them
Somehow, being the roommate of one of them, Mok
Really opens me up to their world
They are nice, cheerful, friendly *not snobbish*, smart
And not to mention, very very very pretty and styloo
They are so much fun and plus I am the type of person who can blend in easily
Hahahahaha...we became close friends instantly!
I love them so much!

Well, for now what I have to do is just...wait...
And wait...and wait for the day to come
Mr. Dude! Please give us a ring a.s.a.p
I need to get things done here...
Pretty please...with a cherrie on top!
Thank you, Mr.Dude!!

And yeah...
I will just keep waiting...
For my home sweet home....
Hmmmmmm.......

Push Me!

2009-06-25T16:15:00.002+08:00

Alamak...
My mojo is gone again!
Who's gonna push me now??
Diana? Where are you??
Push Ain!!
Tolak sampai jatuh!

Happy Ayah's Day

2009-06-21T11:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Father's Day to all fathers in the world

Ayah...
Abang Long...
Abang Ngah...
and Abang Nasir!
All of you are great fathers
Never let your love to your children fade away!

Wedding Plans - Tag by Paqin

2009-06-19T12:56:00.003+08:00

how old are you ?

20 years old , 4months and 6 days

are you single ?

well, i'm not married yet.
single, yes

at what age do you think u'll get married ?

24-25 years old
when both of us got a stable job

do you think you'll be marrying the person u are with now ?

very much hope so...

if not, who do u want to marry ?

a determine and ambitious young man
who cares about our faith, family and career
...equally...

who will be your bridesmaid or your bestman ?

Ena, of coz, if she's not married yet at that time

do you want a garden , beach or traditional wedding ?

erm in Malaysia? I rather do it indoor
or traditional wedding at home

where do you plan to go for honeymoon?

hmmm... tak tahu lah

how many guest do you think you'll invite ?

my parents usually invite a lot of people,
so I'm expecting A LOT of guests

will that include ur exes ?

most definitely
we are *peace and no harm*

how many layers of cake do you want ?

3 layers okay lah tuh

when do you want to get married ? morning or evening ?
Evening of course
Hopefully the weather is great

name the song/tune you would like to play at your wedding ?

English oldies
...the songs he always sings to me...
nak jugak lagu ketepaak ketepuum!

do you prefer fine dining or just normal fork / spoon / knife ?

woah fine dining would be great!

champagne or red wine ?

amboi amboi!
tropical juice sudah!

honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding ?

days after the wedding
...when everything at home is all settled...

money or household item?

Money!

how many kids would you like to have ?

5!
tee hee hee

will you record your honeymoon in CD or DVD ?

ermm... no, i guess
I rather we do cosy pillow talk for flashback

i want to know their wedding plans:
diana ramlan
meera mastura
erna farhana
eliza
diana ibrahim

Rooftop

2009-06-18T12:51:00.003+08:00

This is my favourite picture of all
We were in the dark
On top of one of the highest building in UiTM
The S&T building
Faculty of Engineering
The excitement of being there just made me want to scream
Though,
No one could really see how each others face look like
I know that each one of them were thrilled to be there
Trying not to scream
Or laugh as loud as we always do
It's just so mind-blowing
To witness the sky of Shah Alam at night
Brighten up by the lights of the city
The unity we have
The hard work we've gone through
The ups and downs
The laughs and the tears
Well, the pictures shows it all
All of this is being portrayed
at
The rooftop of S&T building
during the
International Humanitarian Law Debate Championship 2009

You guys will always be in my tiny little heart,
Yours truly...

Ain Salleh

Sometimes It Hurts

2009-06-17T15:02:00.003+08:00

I am annoyed
Feel like I'm being betrayed
Like it is some kind of joke
Spreading fallacious rumors about me
Seem so much fun for him
Maybe he do not realize
And maybe I do not show
But unknown to him it hurts really bad
So humiliating knowing that I am unprotected
Yea... I am sensitive and emotional
Anyone noticed that?
No...

Hey friend,
Maybe you think you are funny
But I think you have crossed the line there
I guess you are not who I think you are... what a waste!

Just one more thing that pissed me off...
Why bother asking if there's no intention to have me there
If you wish everyone would be there
What's wrong with waiting?
Am I less important?
Hah... yelah kut kan
Just go... celebrate whatever there is to celebrate
Yeah and it is always like that

How absurd it is to think that
Family means that nobody is left behind

The Girl Who Changes Her URL Each Time

2009-06-17T01:51:00.002+08:00

Diana Ramlan!!

I think I do owe her this entry...
But D!
10 entries is like freaking a lot of hard work you know
Anyway, thanks for making me post today
I have problems every time I feel like updating this blog
Like you always say "I lost my MOJO to update"
Hahahahahha...
Been looking through several layouts
But nothing catches my eyes...

This holiday,
I thought it would be like before...
Feeling the endless boredom of my sick and pathetic life
And having too much time that is left to be unoccupied
Being so disconnected with friends and the gangs
But no...
Not this time...
It is just perfect and exactly what I needed
Ample time to do everything that I wanted to do
Just look at the list I wanted to achieve this holiday at the side of this blog

::spend more time for myself - checked!
::fun activities with SMF - done!
::session revolves around friends - true!
::time to play with the babies - did that!
::work that breeds me money - 60++bucks counts right?
::nice environment at home - always!
::great movies to be watched - hannah montana? ok what
::rest from the hectic campus life - undeniable
::good books to be read - urm ...except this one!

There's 3 more weeks to go before the classes start
Enough time for me to complete the last one on the list!
Addition to that...

I found a super nice and cosy home for me and my friends
I made some new nice friends, even with those outside of Malaysia
Went for a real photo shoot session for Ardini
Get good final examination results, more than what I expected
Had the best week of my life with the IHL Debate Committee

Well, yeah...
Maybe it's more or less like that
But all in all, I enjoyed spending my time sensibly this time around

D!!
Are you happy now?
I have the feeling that my mojo is on its way!!
Thanks D!
Love ya, love ya, love ya!!

Tired!

2009-06-02T18:23:00.002+08:00

Im so tired right now...
Its 6.30 and I'm still at Kak Ida's office
Just finished with Ardini's shooting
A shoot for one of the campaign for BTP
I tried so hard to stay out of the shoot
Supposedly I have to 'jual muka' in this shoot too
But that's not going to happen
Seeing the cameras and lights and the directors and crew
Already make me sooo freaking sick and tense
I will post on the shoot with photos later on...
Mode right now - sooooooooooo penat!

Pampers Kecik

2009-05-26T18:07:00.003+08:00

This whole day was awful
Hate it when this part of the month comes
I haven't been having pms since the last semester break
Don't know why today it begin to sting again
My problem is when it hurts, it hurts REALLY bad
It feels almost like I'm dying from the inside
I feel bad too because I could not even stand at the sink
To wash the dishes after lunch like I also do
I have to let Mak do it alone
Because I really felt like I was about to pass out

In the evening
Ayah came back from a meeting and had fetched Ena from college
He saw me terbongkok-bongkok jalan macam orang tua

Ayah - Kenapa? Sakit lagi? Demam lagi ke?
Ain - Tak... Sakit perut (laughed)
Ayah - Sakit perut kenapa? Dah makan ubat?
Ain - Umm...dah, datang bulan hehehe (quickly run into my room)

Ardini was doodling in my room
She heard my conversation with Ayah

Dini - Huh? MakCik sakit perut kenapa? Kakak tak dengar tadi...
Ain - Umm... Period...
Dini - Huh? Ape?? Ape tuh... (sounded so curious)
Ain - Nanti kakak dah besar kakak keluar darah dekat...umm... tuh tuh
Dini - Huh? Yeker? Mak Cik tak pakai pampers ke?
Ain - Mana ada pampers Dini
Dini - Tak tak... Alah pampers yang kecik tuh
Ain - This one? (showed a sanity pad to her)
Dini - Yes, yes! That one... tak pakai ker?
Ain - Mesti lah pakai kakak ni
Dini - Dah pakai pun sakit ke?
Ain - Nanti Kak Dini dah besar kakak rasa lah...

There was silence for a moment there

Ain - Kenapa? Kakak takut ker?
Dini - Ye, kakak rasa takut sikit... (continued doodling)

Poor little girl
She needs to go through so many new things in life
Anyway, I know my readers are mature enough to read this
So do not be disgusted
It's a normal natural process in a woman's body
By the way, Ardini is 6 years old

Snap Me Out Of This Dream

2009-05-24T20:14:00.002+08:00

This should mean something
There must be something
I don't believe that these flashbacks just happened without reasons
It's too painful to digest
It's just too freaking painful to inhale

I had a dream about TheShmrs yesterday
A freaking weird one
I was out with Elly, Erna and Wanee
No Fyka and Shy sadly...
We wore something unusual and not what we usual wear everyday
Elly strangely wore this Punjabi clothes
Erna wore a hippie dress
We were out in Subang and I have no idea where it was exactly
And Wanee and I was screaming at each others face
The air feel so timid and tears came streaming down our cheeks
It was unbearable and unavoidable
Dear Wanee! I'll never do that to you!
Never..... I hate that dream
I woke up that morning feeling so freaking hollow
Erna called in the evening
Saying that she might not even be staying in Malaysia anymore
Singapore instead, maybe... just maybe
Elly sent me a message online the night before
But I never got the chance to reply because it was too late
What does this mean!!

Khalis has unexpectedly callled me last night
Pretending to be her little sister Alia
I was like, 'Khalis you jangan gedik boleh tak...hahahha'
She insisted that it wasn't Khalis and Alia instead
The line went off all of the sudden
And seconds later I received her texted
'Nak swim tonight tak?'
It was soooooo ridiculously weird and she never reply my message.

I was lying on my bed this evening
And I was imagining myself in my room back in Merbok
The room I shared with Ainaa, Arissa and Dira Hanna
I miss the environment of the room after Maghrib
When everyone has taken their shower
And the air feel kinda fresh and cold
And when we feel so very hungry and decided to go to food court
Meet Azhar, Umar and Muiz
Strolling down the pathway along the tennis court at night
Feel like life is so easy and breezy
Erghhh... I just miss the place sooo badly right now
I hate that I am feeling some kind of ache right now
Hmmm... It's heart-ache

Today Tiqa who is in New Zealand
Is telling me that she misses the old her
And she doesn't feel as if she is herself anymore
And that makes me excessively worried about her
And her well-being in Wellington
Gawd!
What on earth is going on here...
What's happening to my world?
I feel like I need to find a time machine
That would enables me to travel back in time
To times when I was in Damansara Jaya
To times when I was in Sains Seri Puteri
To times when I was in Merbok, Kedah

Snap me out of this dream
I can't be living in my fantasy
Fantasy of having all the wonderful times in my life back
Right now...
My feeling is sad, frustrated, annoyed and unease
I feel like crying
As if I can't bare this feeling I have inside any longer
I just feel like I want to scream it out to the whole world
Telling them that im aching inside
Wanting the impossible
Believing the unimaginable
Lossing faith im myself
I need the other part of me
I feel so very hollow now...

I miss my old times...
I miss my past...
I just miss everything that I used to have...

Home Sweet Home for Us?

2009-05-24T16:46:00.004+08:00

Ouh man...
Where am I going to stay?
The result for hostel application is out
And I am so officially rejected
A month from now the class would be starting
Me... still no place to crash
Damn... Why lah mawar is being such a donkey!
Kedekut giler!

Bella, Mia, Mok, Myra, Sis!!
I need you guys to be here
So we can go house-hunting
Go round and round searching for our dream home
Home sweet home...
I know you guys are totally worried too
I am sick worried right now...
Since Kristal is no longer the option for us
We need to work very fast!
Before that dream home of ours fly away to others hand

I want that house!
That exact 2-storey house
With 4 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms
I want that porch for Mia's Vios
I want that kitchen for Bella to practice her cooking skills
I want the hall for Sis, Myra and Mok to watch their endless movie marathon
I want a room for me to sleep and live in it!
Please let the house be vacant!
Pretty pleaseeee...

Thank You God

2009-05-23T20:29:00.007+08:00

In just 3 minutes
I read three status in Facebook that sounded so annoyed

1) You suck more than I do

2) SCREW ALL YOUR SORRYs!

3) kau ni bodoh tau tak?!

Each and everyday there's always one thing, at least
That makes us so very sick
That we wish we can just freaking vomit it out
To the people that makes us feel that way
They hurt us, annoy us, and some times they even make us sad
But we rarely see that people really speak up for themselves
And be brave for once to voice out the hatred they have inside
Why do we always say that the world is not fair
True... It is not fair!
But instead of piling it all in your heart
Why not just say it out loud
Who cares about what people think
If it's wrong that it's wrong
For us to make all perfect, it is just impossible to do so
As nothing is perfect in this world
But still it does help you when you get to say
Say that it's not fair, say that it's not right
Maybe they are just too ignorant as not to care
Even though they understood it perfectly
That the world would be a better place for humankind to live in
If they can actually behave like a real human being

I just realized
My current status on Facebook right now is
why people in this world are just ungrateful
I believe I am actually reminding myself too
Be grateful people
Ayah just reminded me of that yesterday
Thank you God!
For all the wonders that You have done

Mana?

2009-05-21T21:59:00.001+08:00

masih tiada mood...
mood where are you??
hmmm...

Moooood!

2009-05-21T16:45:00.002+08:00

why lah...
no mood to write...

Things That I 'SHOULD' Never Write!

2009-05-13T23:48:00.005+08:00

Writing is in me...
Forever is and forever will be in me
One of the evidence that proved this statement is
My journal when I was still in school...
Erm maybe it was when I was in Form 2
It's freaking ridiculous!
I don't even know why I've written all these things
Why was I so stupid??
Hahahah!
Here it goes... it's in RED font...

THINGS THAT I 'SHOULD' NEVER FORGET

1. The day I got my UPSR result

OMG! This is like the worst day ever!
I hate it when teachers put to much expectation in you and you failed...
I was aiming to get 5 A's but I got 4A'a instead...
What was even wrong is that it was English that I got B for!! English??!!
Science terer plak! Pelik tul!

2. Amir Faliq's birthday party (when aizat said hello to me)

Ouhkay?! Who the heck is he?
I can't even remember this guy's face
Wait, let me recall...Hmmm I think he's the friend of Amir's brother
That all I know... Eeeww...
Kenapa pulak I should never forget him...
I can't even remember he existed pon... whatever

3. My birthday party (when Adilah smashed my birthday cake)

Ahh! This I remember very well!
Still fresh in my mind!
It was my 12th birthday party...
My friends were all singing Happy Birthday to me...
My sister was carrying my niece, Adilah (she was still a baby)
And suddenly she smacked my birthday cake!!
I can see all the 5 fingerprints on the cake!
IN THE MIDDLE OKAY!!
Every one went 'Ouuuuuuuuu!!'
And it became the hot story at school the day after... Hahahha!

4. SMKTTDI annual sports's day

I have no freaking idea why is this in my list?!!
Maybe because my friends and I use to have a lot of friends there
Khalis, Quya, Leyna and Tiqa were all in SMK Damansara Jaya though
We did have fun... But we only went there twice jer...

5. Zaim. My first boyfriend (he was fantastic)

HUH??!! Was he?
I don't even consider him as my first love at all...
Ishhh! I was still a little girl kut?!
There's no way to describe him as fantastic...
Gawd! Geli geli geli!!

6. My truest friends ever (quya,khalis, leyna,atiqah)

This I will never deny...
Even though I grew apart with Quya now
Ever since school was done, I still consider her my truest friend ever
(I hope you are reading this dear... I miss you)
Atiqah is now in New Zealand and I'm missing her each and everyday
Khalis... still strong as ever, we even have our weekly date in UiTM
Leyna... there forever and always, she never lets me down!
I love you girls so much!

7. The day I lost my mum's handphone (during Abg Ngah's wedding)

I was given the privilege of having my own phone
Since I was standard 4 or 5, can't remember
But one thing about me... I always lost the valuable things I got
I mean expensive stuff like watches, this handphone
Ummm... my retainer that cost RM500?
Classy sunglasses...
What else? Uh! I can't even remember!
Clumsy me!

8. The day my parents left me at home (while the others go shopping)

Okay!? This is stupid!
The immature me of course...
I go balistic that my family all went out for a shopping trip
And left me all alone at home after I came home from tuition
I cried in my room for one whole night
Hahahahah!

9. Makan Malam Mesra PIBG SKTTDI 1 (when Izwan treated me like an angel)

Allahyarham Izwan...
Allah must have love him even more
He was killed in a road accident 2 years ago
I still remember how he treated me that night
We went for a reunion party of our primary school
I wasn't with any of my friends, my sister instead
So when I met him, we hung out together watching the show and stuff
I remembered that V.E performed the 'Ayu' song that night
Friends thought we were right for each other
Teachers were shocked to see us together
But nothing really happened between us
He waited for me to make a move while I waited for him
In the end, his friend, who were playing cupid between us, 'masuk line'

10. My prefect's camp at Awana Genting (when people called me Pantene Girl)

Iman tak kuat! Hahahahah...
During this time I wasn't wearing tudung yet
Not consistantly (that's why I said 'iman tak kuat')
The instructor at the camp purposely pointed me out during briefing
As the 'Pantene Girl' just because I have the long straight hair
So people wouldn't call me 'Ain' during the whole camp
They called me 'Pantene Girl' instead
Why is this in the list?
Mesti kes perasan and syiok sendiri ni!

11. Year 2003 (the year when I had the stress of my life)

Um...honestly I don't remember why
Hmmmm???

12. Izwan (I don't know whether he is my biggest cruch or not)

I did mention him in No.9
I'm telling you, I had a crush on him for quite a long time
May Allah bless his soul
Al-Fatihah...

13. The time my face was ruined! - terrible!

Ouh... hmmm embarrasing
I got a lot of scar due to the pimples that grew like mad
I hated my face at this time
One of the reason I didn't make a move on late-Izwan
I felt ugly at that time, low self-esteem
But fear no more!
I have high respect over myself and my body
So whatever that bothers you a lot, does not bother me
I can be fat if I want to, And thin as I can be
No such thing like dieting sebab nak kurus
I eat like a hungry bear... ask my friends
They've seen it all

14. My exam week (it was terrible because I did last minute studying)

Ouh well...
Last minute study is my nature
Don't know how to change my attitude
0_o

15. Hafiz. The sweetest, nicest and kinda cute guy (I think he likes me)

Hahah! Funny that he's in the list
This is the 'cupid' guy
The one that 'masuk line' during Izwan's time
I was suppose to help late-Izwan to make a move on me
Unfortunately, it was a failure
So he took charge... sending lovey dovey messages
A girl he used to have affair with even called me
Cursing me this and that, and said that I stole Hafiz away from her
But actually there was nothing serious about us
It's just two old flames that never really combust...
It was just a fling...

16. The day Kak Azian and Kak Asni read this book!! (woi, tak guna!)

Hahaha! Embarassing!
At that time, to me this should be like a very sacred secret
I even had a fight with them over this matter
I hated them so much for this
BUT now...
I just feel that this list is freaking stupid
Well, some of them are...
While others make me realized of things that I should never forget
Especially things like my faith in Tiqa, Khalis, Leyna and Quya
The memory of a late friend like Allahyarham Izwan
It's definitely something that I can never experience in a thousand year...

Thus, you should all cherish your every moment
As you will never know whether or not
The day would ever come again...

Desperado?

2009-05-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

Maybe I put to many pictures in blog
Cause every time I snap a photo
People would say...
'Ain nak letak dalam blog dia lah tuh!'
Okay! I'll try to limit the number of photos in my blog
Album would be strictly on Facebook
Meanwhile the exclusive and meaningful ones would get to be published here
(I hope so)
Alar! Tak syiok lah camtuh!
Hmmmphh! we'll see about that
Since I have more time to spend on my blog this holiday
Let's hope there would be more words than photos around here
Well, okay so has anybody feel so bored looking at my blog yet
If you think that I need a make-over for it do tell me...
I'm in a hunt for fab layout these days
Found few already but feel kinda guilty to replace this one
What do you think?
Hurmm...

Hey does anyone knows how to make good money?
I mean easy-peasy money!
Hard cold cash instantly??
Besides cupcakes, baby-sitting, 'working at the mall', or being a maid?
Huhuhuhuh... certainly trying to earn here
So that I would not be miserable when the new semester comes
So that I won't be envying Azhar's shopping trips to Pavillion
So that I won't have to make pity doggy face to get a free 100bucks gladiator shoes
(Like I once did to 'somebody'...I didn't mean it though)
and so that I won't be freaking-ly craving over marvelous food?
Huhuhuhu... help me!
People, send your babies to me!
I'll keep them alive and free from 'selsema babi'!
Being a desperado here okay!

Anyway...
I miss Shmr Babes...
I miss Khalis, Leyna, Quya and Tiqa...
I miss my DJians alot!
I miss 6Gadis + PL3A clan...
I miss Irfan and Mira so badly...
I just miss alot of people right now!
Hmmm...

3 Weeks of Disordered Life

2009-05-12T01:50:00.006+08:00

It has been a month
Or plus...
Even others are complaining
Ain bila nak update your blog?
Hmmmm....

For almost three weeks
I've been getting into bed very late at night
Well maybe I should say 'morning'
It started very very late in the afternoon
12 or 1 pm perhaps...
Got into the shower
Put on some clean and descent clothes
Off to DC as the fireball is straight up on my head
Went to the Periuk Besar Nasi Ayam
'Bang, nasi ayam panggang 2 yer, kasi 1 dada, 1 tight'
(Even the cik abang knows me very well already)
Walked right off the the bus stop to get on the RapidKL
Touch n' Go card in my hand... ready to be 'touched'
Most off the days it will be very extremely extravagantly HOT
Some days its just windy and rainy
Got off the bus and phone him up
'I'm here...please buy 2 bottles of mineral water, thanks'
We meet up and hike up the mounty sidewalks to the faculty
Digged in and burped it all out
'Dah? Are you ready? Jom...'
Off we went to the library... that cold freezing library!
Stayed there till we can't feel our feet
And writing seem sooo impossible!
(especially with that harden fingers!)
Then we'll go for dinner
Experimenting different types of food everyday
That is where our good money goes
Food, food, food, food!
Go back! Take a nap! Go lepak-ing at friends' room...
Studying start again at 10pm or 11pm??
Or maybe 12am lah... fine whatever!
It went on for like 5 to 6 hours
And at 4am everyday for the past 3weeks
I heard bird chirping nearby my room
I mean at 4am EVERYDAY!!
I repeat... EVERYDAY without fail, okay!
Azhar and Mok would say...
'Ain ni memang masa dia, kita je tak tido lagi...'
So true... 6am dooze off!

That was my life for the past 3weeks
Really...

Merbok Homecoming

2009-04-05T23:33:00.004+08:00

The journey

The water... River that I've got thrown into

Tomyam... at De Sabai

Seniors...

Bowling...

Arcade...

New lobby for Merbok campus...

Karaoke...

Umar Khalid...

Luqman Mazlan...

Late night postmortem...

Long table at Makbul...

All in all...
Merbok Homecoming rocks my world!
Thanks SMF clan!

Happy Birthday, AzharShah

2009-04-05T23:05:00.005+08:00

Parfait from Baskin Robin

StarHill pathway

Nine West fashion show at Pavillion!

His tummy wants more tomyam!

Happy Birthday, Azhar Shah...
May everything goes the way we plan it to be...
Have a wonderful 20th birthday!

Ladies Getaway!!

2009-04-05T22:43:00.004+08:00

I couldn't go home at that time...
Everyone went back to Kedah
Left me all alone with broken heart
Who broke my heart?
Let it be a question...
Nevertheless...
It was a fun weekend after all
Thanks to Ameera Mastura
for inviting me over to her house
And also to Wajdiwail, Faiznur and Diana!
You people are my life saver!!

Sekretariat Mahasiswa Fakulti - Photoshoot

2009-04-05T22:26:00.004+08:00

Partners in crime!

The driver! Khairil!

Boss! Rahimi...

Wawa Pre-Law

Kwamer in action!

The ladies!

Nice!

Love working with them!

Sorry!

2009-03-15T16:52:00.002+08:00

It must be very annoying
Seeing more and more photos in this blog
Rather than written words in it
Frankly speaking, I have a lot to tell
Just that I haven't got that much chances
So many things, so little time
What to do...
It just seem like posting photos is so much more convenient
Than typing out thousands of words
I'm sorry for not giving you real updates
I hope these photos may give you clearer views of my days
Picture is worth a thousands of words...

I'll update soon!

Zahirah's Reception

2009-03-15T14:27:00.008+08:00

Zahirah and Arianshah
15th March 2009